Not that there isn’t always something new and exciting on the horizon… but let’s face it, most days (months?) that horizon just keeps receding before us, despite how fast we may run. I can’t speak for everyone’s shortfalls in reaching their goals, but one of my biggest challenges is making and sticking to deadlines. When you’re a perfectionist like myself you’re constantly conflicted by the knowledge that you can keep doing a certain project better than it already is. … When you’re a procrastinator like myself, you’re certain that you’ll always be able to do it even better tomorrow. It’s a vicious dilemma, curable only by getting sick of working on the project or when outside influences assert direction or expectations less
wishy-washy ambiguous dubious than your own (which, really, let’s be honest and call it wishful thinking).
So I’ve been talking about (if not working on) getting into illustration for a few years now. I illustrated a children’s book from a small publisher over a year ago, but it’s way past time to move on to bigger and better things. More specifically, I’d like to get together a strong portfolio to send out to the big-name publishers and, hopefully get onto a big-name project. It’s a daunting process though, and I admit to having some reservations about the market, about my own intentions, about the best portfolio strategy to follow, etc. Needless to say, I’m not quite a household name yet in the world of illustration, children’s or otherwise. However! The Society of Children’s Book Writers and Illustrators (SCBWI, if you don’t mind) has recently made some changes to their 2011 Winter Conference and the Illustrator’s Showcase would be just a fantastic opportunity to get some exposure and maybe even some work. Even though the format won’t allow me to browse other artist’s work, I’d get to rub elbows with them and maybe make some industry contacts. Possibly I’ll have enough of a portfolio put together to deliver it to a few New York Art Directors. I would certainly adore their feedback, if nothing else.
Furthermore, frankly I just need an adventure. New York seems like a good bet for that. Travelling can be a great experience and maybe a trip like this (pseudo-business related, I thrive on structure!) will recharge my batteries for whatever’s coming next on my artistic journey. I’m still working on the logistics of the whole venture, but I’m optimistic, and even if it all falls through I’m going to do my best to take advantage of whatever momentum I can tap in the process.
By the way, no, my retail jobs would not nearly cover this trip, I owe a great deal to my parents and their 25th birthday (+ Christmas + 26th birthday + next Christmas …) present of a chance to get out of town. I can cover a bit, but their contribution is really the game changer that takes this from being a flight of fancy to being a plan in motion.